Recently I heard the phrase “I cry ugly”. It was spoken by someone who was trying not to tear up and it occurred to me how much we try to present a specific image to others. Since then I have been thinking about this and it saddened my heart to realize that we often think of our brokenness as ugly. We can hide our needs behind a facade and we feel that showing this brokenness is somehow unpresentable. If we can not reveal these areas of hurt how can they be healed?
Often when we hear the word repentance we approach it the same way; as something ugly and distasteful. We don’t want to admit the brokenness within our heart because we feel people and even God will reject us. The truth is God doesn’t see our repentance as something ugly; He views it as beautiful. He doesn’t lord our brokenness and struggles over us; He meets us in the midst of them to bring healing. He cherishes the very tears we try to hide, the hurt we feel and He longs to bring freedom and healing. His heart is full of love for us even when we feel the furthest from Him. He is not an angry God waiting to mock our brokenness but a loving Father we wants to meet us in a moment of beautiful repentance and carry us to a place of love and freedom.
“If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us.”
I John 1:8-10 NKJV