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I was spending time with God and reflecting back on my life journey so far. I cringed at some of the attitudes and actions I saw in my past. I spent so many years controlled by expectations and the need to always have an answer for everything and anything. If I didn’t have an answer I did everything I could to find out. Now none of these seems truly terrible, it’s not like looking back at a sinful life… or is it?

What made me cringe is how long I carried a burden that God never intended me to carry. He doesn’t expect me to figure things out or have a ready answer for a particular situation. It’s not my responsibility to resolve dilemmas or make things turn out a certain way. What He was showing me is that I measured my worth by chasing all those things. In other words I was walking in pride, the very first sin that ever entered the world. I worked hard to earn my identity because in my pride I reasoned that I had to be good enough to make God pleased.

When He set me on the path to learning what my real identity is in Him I began to grow and heal from some of those misconceptions. It’s been a process but not because I had a lot to do. It’s been a process because I have had to learn who He is. You see, when we stop and lay down all of our own thoughts and understanding and we sit in His presence we are doing the one and only thing He wants from us.

When God designed the Garden of Eden it was made as a place where He could come and walk with us in the cool of the day, it was a place of relationship. As I have leaned into this truth I have felt chain after chain break off of me. The freedom He purchased for me is priceless! Not just the gift of salvation but a life time of leaning on and being loved by Him.

When cancer arrived in my life I very quickly realized how important it is to not know the answers. The answers medically say that with my diagnosis they might not be able to stop the spread. God said I would live and not die. The answers medically say five percent of women with this diagnosis might get 3yrs to live. God said I would live and not die. (I am entering year four and still improving).

The power is not in what I know it is who I belong to. It’s not wishful thinking or hoping God will have an answer it is knowing that He has already provided the answer. He has already paid for my healing. It is already done. How can I know … not because I have some medical answer but because it is written!

If you are facing a challenge find out what is written and stand on it!!